Even when it's not shining.
I believe in love,
Even when I don't feel it.
I believe in God,
Even when God is silent.
~Anonymous Jewish text
Before my eyes even opened this morning, my heart and mind were anxious. I am not even sure why. Many thoughts were swirling around in my head. Thoughts I should not even be worrying about and the pressure of things I need to and have to do over the next few days were weighing heavy on my mind. I lay in bed with my eyes still closed for a while praying for the thoughts to go away or an understanding as to why I was feeling so anxious about them. I believe God wants me to experience everything he has for me, and sometimes that is not always clear. Today has definitely been one of those days. I have walked with a cloud over me most of the day. As my day comes to an end, I am still not completely sure of my feelings, but I do know. I am blessed. I am valued. I am beloved. By my Father, even when I can't seem to feel Him. Even when I feel lost.
Today I blessed my friend Lisa with a listening ear and a cup of ice cream. Couldn't pull any other blessings out today.
I made homemade chocolate chip cookies tonight and counted them as a blessing. I ate five or so because sometimes eating a dessert with chocolate in it, I think I feel better. Especially when I see the smile on my children's faces when they come into the kitchen after allowing their noses to follow the smell. Chocolate chip cookies just seem to make everything better.
I believe tomorrow will be a new day.
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